Lonely

I can't get him off my mind.  I just want to sit near him.  I want to watch him and listen to him.  Why am I so lonely today?  Why can't I make myself forget?  Why won't my mind let go?  He doesn't want me.  He is happier without me.  I should leave it alone.  I break my own heart too regularly.  Wishing he would come back is too much.  Holding onto his family and friends is pain beyond belief.  I am my own worst enemy.